Love beyond 2 - That's what's it all about. Starting the journey towards being licensed foster care parents was one we never "second guessed". Longing to have children around was something we desired to not have to long for anymore. Whether our own, or somebody else's, the love we had to share was bubbling over. In other words, it was time. I will always say "We will serve You while we're waiting", Lord. I got that line from a song and it has stuck with me every since. We don't have babies by blood, but we now care for babies that we consider blood. We love them- like our own, care for them- like our own, & cherish them- like our own. It's not always easy & maybe not always fun, as far as the system goes, but it's always rewarding when we look at the children. We may get just a brief moment to show them what love really is & that may be the seed that blooms later in their life.
& that's exactly how the first two happened. We had a brief moment to love them, to pour into them, show them Jesus, & show them what it likes to be cared for. We received a call that 2 siblings were needing a home. Of course, I said "yes! bring them to me!" Within just hours, I was blessed with a little 5 month old baby boy & a 21 month old princess.. but little did I know.. little did I know that they would leave us so soon. A little less than three days after coming "home", they went to be with their biological grandmother- which is GREAT! If family can do it, they deserve to be with family. But it sure did hurt. I was so ready to love those babies and keep them for a while, but that's okay. They're where they belong.
We still miss Baby Z & Baby H, but I know in my heart that we did what we could while we had them & I wouldn't change a thing.
Everyone says to guard your heart, but that doesn't mean to close it off. You can guard your heart and pour it out completely all in the same moment.
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